im scared more then worried. wat am i scared of? not findin the "one" that will love me for who i am. the one that will love me no matter wat comes out of my mouth or how stupid i can act or how loud i get and that will catch me when i fall after a 5th a crown royal. it seems like everyone in my circle of friends is gettin in to real relationships and tryin to make a go at a family. like one of my good guy friends is final startin to look at marriage n stuff. and its a totally shock bc he would take anyone home with him i mean anyone even a married woman (two nite in a row) he would start drinkin at like noon and would stop till he passed out at home now that he has gottin with this chick (that he thinks is the "one) he hasnt drink and he is have the shakes bc of it n he is really workin hard not to mess this relationship up. then there is another friend that is havin a baby none of us thought he would have n is actually actin like an adult he has grown up SO much since june and we r all so proud of him! n im not sayin that im scared of growin up bc i think that i have grown up alot since high school im jst scared that im stuck in a rut that i cant get out of. i mean im not gettin any younger and the years jst seem to be flyin by like nothing. i dont kno!
love, peace, and chicken greace!
omg! i have so much on my mind! i still live at home with nana. i want (NEED) to move out bc im going crazy. but the job i have now dont pay me as much as my last one did at the caverns. i dont have the money for school i dont think that im going to go next semster. im not even sure i want to go back at all but i kno that i dont want to be 10 years down the road and regret not going back. im just so tried of school. i kno if i would have moved away and got away from my gma i would have done better. i dont kno! life is so complacted! god i wanted to grow up so bad n now i dont want to. i like how easy life was in high school. all i had to worry bout was gettin my paper in by 2nd hour class. yeah i didnt get alot of time off my senior year but man i didnt work every freakin day. im so tried anymore i dont go out i just stay home. and if i do go out its to my friends house. if we go out and kick it with other pple we just play drinkin games. i dont dont even talk to much to my friends from high school. and the one friend that i do hang and talk to all the time might be moving soon to texas so i wont have her anymore. god i dont kno life sucks as usually. i dont kno wat to do. i just want everything to go the way i want it to. and to top it off im single like always! im not a girl who lets the guy cheat on her or let him tell me wat im going to do. i guess im to indepent and not wellin to let someone in. i just have gotten hurt to many time by pple that i thought that wouldnt hurt me. i just dont kno anymore!!!! well i got to go.
love, peace, and chicken grease
so yeah...i havent blogged in along time...i was readin some of the blogs that i have on here and all i really use this for is to vent...which i probably better the myspace cause my aunt and uncle dont have one of these...so yeah im still at the caverns, i still drive a '92 ford t-bird, im still single (workin on this though)...my life is pretty much the same...ummm...brit didn't work out there was a another girl she lived in cruses ugly as hel too! there was this guy at work that i went out with for a while but he got to seroius to fast...he was talkin marriage and shit and i was like UM NO!!! im only 18 i got to much shit i still want to do! but ya'll remember jared (kanasa) from prom? well if u don't i will fresh ur memior...he is the tall skinny guy that went with me and damian. i danced with him most of the night and damian got all mad. remember i was going to try to get with him at the end of last year? u probably do...anyways well we have been talkin alot lately on myspace and we might just get together after all...which is pretty cool...yeah he is like a 1 1/2 younger then me but its ok...as long as his rents are cool with it...so yeah i might be movin out around spring break time...that is if one of my good friends buys this house (its the guy from work...he is buyin this house and going to let me and candice move in it rent free EVERYTHING is going to be free. all we have to do is go to school everyday and to work everyday we work. which isnt alot to ask for...but its along story so don't ask) its the house on pate street that for sell. the break one...its 3 bedroom 2 bath...its huge compared to the other one we were going to move into...well i think im going to go....love ya'll
i meet this AWESOME GUY!!!
i really like him....his name is Brit....no
he didn't go to high school with any of us...
he is 22 and big...i mean he does not look like any of the
guys i usually go for...i usually go for the tall skin guys
well lets just say that this guy in NOT skin...he isn't fat either...
he is like a big teddy bear....i have seen him everynight but sunday
this past weekend...and all we have done is watch tv and movie and
he held me in his arms tell like twelve thirty both nights!!!
i don't kno ya'll i think that i REALLY like this guy...
tasha parker might finally have a boyfriend that like her
for her!!!
